I couldnt see !!

change my endless dream of owning what is mine ..
sinners are kissing me
liars are promising me
and am broken within my ultimate escape..
but I wont stop staring at his picture every night..
and I wont stop crying over his soul..
that is what I owned
they think its easy..
asking me to forget and move on..
my heart screaming HOW CAN I ?
that is what I owned within me ..
a part of me..
a piece of my heart ..
how can I ?
dreams drowning me inside ..
inside that fake desire..
reaching a hand to save me..
all I could feel was a bleeding memory and a shallow hope ..
a pain in my throat ..
and I couldn't see ..
the blood on the bed is something I can not forget ..
the blood on my legs is something i cant not forgive..
please God have mercy upon my broken heart..
don't let me live to remember this ...